- lil` fairy -` *

Thursday, May 6, 2010

left eyelid is twitching again..
something terribleeeee is bound to happen.
its been like this for days.
:(

anyway,
bad things are already happening to me.

i don't think i'll get the green light to study overseas.
99% don't think so.

because even my relatives don't support my decision..
they feel that i'm those kind that won't survive alone out there..

let alone my mum,
who has been strongly against my idea since day1 when i first mentioned to her about it.

only my dad is half -heartedly cheering me on..
he says he's worried too.

whats there to worry??
why is everyone worrying??

i'm old enough to take care of myself..
i think..

sigh...

surprisingly,
i'm not really upset about not being able to go abroad.
expected this anyway..
can say that i was just trying my luck.
(and pushed it too far)

but what saddens me is that i don't get the support from my loved ones.
yea.
disheartening.

well, i'm fortunate in a way cause this shows that they do care for me..
maybe they think from an 'adult's' perspective..
thats why i can never comprehend what their worries are..
what exactly are they thinking.

ok maybe i was just consoling myself..

my sister told me straight in the face to stop being such a brat.
cos she feels that i can just enrol into sim.

okay okay...
i'll do so then..
resign to my fate.

*but still hoping for a miracle to happen*
maybe someday someone will enlighten my mum, and all the adults..
:D

or will someone enlighten me instead?

after being hit by realisation,
i've been on an eating spree~
gorge myself till i forget all the bad stuff.

had an awesome lunch with my dad & sis.
at our fav jap rest.
in the end,
i was convinced by my sis to foot the bill,
cos she said i had to accumulate good karma for next week.

she said she did that too,
and passed her test.
her friend who didnt reciprocate her treat,
failed the test pretty badly.
lol

so i've accumulated good karma!
hopefully its good enough,
cos the bill was actually enough for me to resit the test
(choychoy!).
._.
hahaha

but quality time spent with my family,
= priceless! ^^
not feeling the pinch.

later that night,
had Sushi Tei with my cousin..
will nv get sick of sashimi.

& i had Taiwanese food today!
to our dismay,
it was awful.
a new rest at vivo.
service was lousy too.

it doesnt have Pearl Milk Tea on its menu.
and if i'm not wrong,
i didnt see any meesua.

won't patronise the place again.
i thought i could relive the Tw memories!
but..
nvm..

then then,
proceeded to have desserts at the Hk dessert place.
niceeee :)
i love the tofu pudding.

lastly was Marche for dinner~~~~~
rosti is the best~~
baked potatoes are nice too.
potatoes frenzy.
but i didnt had Movenpick icecream today.
too filled up.

not forgetting retail therapy!
i'm cured from whatever depression i've experienced over the past few days :D

started attending a short Korean language course as well.
classmates are mostly working adults,
but i'm lucky to ve met one girl who's a year older than me.
and so we're able to hit it off instantly.
haha

& we have almost the same thinking;
signed up for lots of such courses cos we wna escape working!
a perfect excuse.
:x
(she's having summer vacation)

felt the interest to study this language again,
after watching all the kdramas ^^

oh ya..
Junsu was in town last weekend..
but didnt attend the showcase..

dunno why but felt that i'm not crazy over him anymore.

after all that happened to db.
'always keep the faith'..
i'm starting to lose it.
i don't like when its not 5.

either 5 or none for me..
i wna see dbsk as one again..
:( :( :(

raine`
@ 1:28 AM

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